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You know, life is so funny, it throws things at you when you dont need them and holds it captive from you when you crave it most...like love... I fall in and out in and out ,but i can never find it when i really need it. I`ll fall in love in the middle of a study session or during class, exactly when I DONT need it. I know Im young I shouldnt be thinking about things like that but I cant help it. Im such a girl...Off topic now, Ive been studying alot of things about Kabuki, I grown to love it very much, Im almost obssessed...well not almost ...I am. I researched the history and am trying to catch up on all the Kabuki plays Ive never seen on you tube its so exciting, I also got a new job ...AT A GAME STORE! WOO~! anyways now I can save up some money so that I `ll be ready for Americas next top model cycle 10 Im gonna try it and IM GONNA WIN! ARRRGUUU~!!! ::fiery passion:: OH YEA HAVE YOU HEARD!!!!? Gravitation is having a new series, called Gravitation EX!!!! Im sooo excited because I thought Gravitation was gone ::crys:: now Im going to be able to update my Gravitation xanga again! WOOT WOOT~! Im sooo happy!! I had such an obsession with it in 9th grade and when it ended I closed the book and cryed~!! the new series is about like ...wait:: looks it up::

In order to heal the wounds in his heart, Eiri Yuki and his vocalist lover, Shuichi, travel to New York to visit the grave of Yuki's first love and tormentor, Yuki Kitagawa. But once there, they make a startling discovering that will change their lives...forever! The eagerly awaited sequel to the shonen-ai smash hit begins right here!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~!! The sequel!!! ::tears of joy leak from my eyes!!:: REJOICE GRAVITATION FANS REJOICE!!!

...yeahhh sooo catch ya later inter journal.

-Mika

Gosh I miss the days when xanga was popular....so much out with the old on with the new nowadays..yknow...I miss my childhood, even though it`ll never return. Theres no point in missing something that can never come back. Life is like a series of photographs...put together in ones hand and as if by magic recieves movement which creates the illusion of life....thats exactly what life is to me. Sometimes it flows perfectly with  an almost unreal harmony...and sometimes it just moves slowly with such slothness. Today my day is just inbetween...no to slow...and not to fast, not perfect , but just okay. Im stuck on this story Ive been writing... if you guys want to read it its on www.adultfanfiction.net  my author name is PhiloSophe soo try it Im up to chapter 5 already and have already recieved 22 reviews but I feel its kinda boring because theres this other author on that site that is SOOOO GOOD at original stories, most of her stories are about acient Rome and stuff but the way she tells it , Aurgh its sooo great!!! you have to read them, I want to write just like her, but unforunately I havent been that good with historical fiction in the past....all stories on that site is NOT for children, but I know just like me your not gonna listen lolz I mean Im not even 18 yet either and Ive been reading stories on that site since I was 13 hahaha but yeah anyway give it a try maybe you`ll like my story maybe you wont. heres the prolouge.

Clouds:

by PhiloSophe

Prologue


Summary: Jamie always has his head in the sky, always thinking, always dreaming, obsessed with all things beautiful.He takes this ambition to Germany where he meets Skye, a beautiful local artist obsessed with the beauty of clouds in search for his happy ending, also sharing Jamie`s ideas.Through many hardships,and past all the deciet, When will they realize they`ve found their ambitions in each other.



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Class had just ended.I found myself thrilled and also anxious, I had been waiting to develop this film all day, as I gazed up into the blurred sky, I couldn`t help but contemplate...

Life is like a series of photographs, put together like a story, then as if by magic recieves movement, giving off the illusion of life.

As I walked through Washington Square park I couldn't help but notice how routinuly my life had become, I see the same people...walk through the same park...towards the same building everyday. If my life was a seeries of photographs than I`ve been retaking, reliving the same photos over and over again, moving onto the next line of film when the previous goes dry.I clutched my camera with both hands and raised it off my neck as if possesed, I turned it towards myself staring straight into the lens, pulling the corner of my mouth up into an amused smirk.

"chir chik"

I don`t live for the future,I don`t dwell in the past. If each moment before me, is the past and each moment after is future...then I want to stay here, in this camera... forever stuck in time.



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Depressed,

its not a word i often use, but today ive been feeling this way ...nonstop, theres this guy i like...i really like.... his smile gives a new defintion towhat happiness is, and i constantly dream of having him smile beamingly only towards me... We have so much in common...but he couldnt wait... he had to go out with her... shes so deamanding i cant believe he actually agreed to go out with her... im so sad, i spent all day yesterday baking a cake, that hopefully he likes.... it wasnt for nothingYOU KNOW WHAT!!! i dont care about lauren or any other girl, i will still keep on trying cuz i know the feeling IS there i know he must have some kind of feelings for me so i will am to deepen it and watch it blossom, I WILL SUCCEED YOU GUYS, because i like him alot and im not gonna let him go so easily, everything i look into his eyes, i feel as if i can dream forever, into the world of reverie. Ryan ...I like you alot... and i only dream of being with you.